Hello you, there’s probably a very small chance that you might read this. But I’ll write it anyway.
I’ve been stronger these past few weeks. I’ve always thought that I will never get through the pain because it hurts too much. But hey, you were right! “Kakayanin mo yan”, that’s what you said. And look, kinaya ko nga. You pushed me way too many times that looking back, I feel so sorry for myself. I wish I hadn’t fight for you during all those several times you pushed me away.
Every single day felt like I was trying to bring back what’s already gone. I knew right then, the very first time you tried to break up with me, that you didn’t love me anymore. But even though I knew that, I had hope.
I was hopeful that maybe one day, you will look at me again the same way you look at me when we first met. I was hopeful that you will say to me again those sweet words you used to tell me. I was hopeful that maybe I’ll be able to do something that will make you fall in love to me again. All I’ve had was that stupid fucking hope!
But I know better now. I am just grateful for all the lessons our relationship taught me.
I wish you well. Good luck with your life. When we see each other in the future, I hope I will not remember all the pain you’ve caused me anymore, so that I can smile at you and show you how happy I already am, not because I want to make you regret losing me but because I am truly happy.